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Anyway, after I failed to notice her and continued going about my day trying to be cool and stick it to the man, she messaged me on Facebook. Facebook was new and exciting back then, and not a terrifying all-knowing consumer surveillance tool. She asked me if I wanted to go on a walk in the arboretum sometime.

I said yes, and then promptly tried to figure out who she was, and how she knew who I was. A day later I met her outside her dorm.

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A couple weeks after that, on October 1st,an annoyingly direct suite-mate of hers asked if we were dating and after a quick side conversation, we reluctantly admitted we were officially together. But, we kept hanging wkfe together, and we kept talking. Talking is what we did best.

By spring, we said we loved each other. At that point, our conversations had already covered topics that many couples take years to get to.

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This was not a lie, and it was not deception. I honestly believed I was not trans, and I did not hide my feelings about my sex and gender. I felt a compulsive need to share them with Laura. Laura was never a super feminine person, and while this occasionally bugged me —mostly when I was dysphoric— it only ever resulted in gentle prodding that Laura looked nice in feminine clothing and that she should grow her hair out. Looking back on it, these comments were more about me than they were about her.

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She knows who she is, and what she wants to do. For her part, the Married wife looking real sex Mitchell thing Laura ever wanted me to be was healthy and happy. She knew that food that was fried, topped with cheese, or slathered in ranch dressing would make me temporarily happy.

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I resented her a bit for that, but knew it came from a place of love. By the time we graduated, it had become a matter of when we would get married, not if.

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We finally got married in July of It was a wonderful day. I only experienced one minor lookiing in my uncharacteristically good mood. She was a bride. She looked so beautiful and happy. I was happy too, sure. If nothing else, I was happy to be with her.

However, she was happier than I was capable of being.

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It was always there, ready to pop up. It was the middle of summer in Minnesota. I still thought I could escape my dysphoria. As another couple years passed, we talked frequently about how we felt like we had become one person split into two different bodies. The only exception to this sharing of thoughts and emotions was my growing dysphoria. I had started, privately, to come up with elaborate theories and wire experiments that I now know were designed to keep me from ever doing anything about my feelings.

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It worked, for a while.

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When Laura and I started trying to conceive our Married wife looking real sex Mitchell child, my theories and thought experiments were on their last legs. The realization that my wife was about to be a mother made it impossible for my desires to be quelled by mere logic. My feelings were much too visceral for that. I blamed it on the lookinng of my job, the knowledge that I was about to lose a significant degree of freedom etc.